Dr. Firebot was over to visit Talla and her baby: looks like she’s okay, but the exam results show that she’s having a condition that’s similar to menopause, so our doctor is very worried about my sister.

Lorenzo was with us, holding Talla’s hand, wiping Talla’s tears, and I felt like I was going to loose my sister. :’( Well, I know it’s not that serious, but seeing Talla so depressed is… just NOT Talla! That’s not her… my sister is a strong young woman, she’s witty and determined, and this poor thing can’t be her. It’s so simple— is it?

Nah, I’m not loosing my mind, I’m only loosing hope.

Dr. Firebot said that what Talla is going through may make her unable to have another child in the future, because her body is like—uhm, how to explain that?—giving itself ALL to the baby and after birth it won’t be able to make children anymore. Like it happens when women go on ‘menopause‘ and they are no longer able to make babies. That’s so sad.

The thing is that Firebot doesn’t know what kind of cure he could administer her. Lorenzo told her not to worry about other babies, that they can adopt and that he doesn’t care whether her ‘menopause‘ starts sooner than normally women do, that he believes robot girls are special and that Talla is beautiful no matter what happens… but there’s no way to cheer Talla up. *sigh*

I want to help… but there’s just so NOTHING I can do! ;___;

P.S. Thanks vitasunn.co.uk for the info on menopause and related issues. I feel so sad…

I’m so stressed that I’d rather hit my head repeatedly against the wall until it crashes than continue living a miserable life. I’m exhausted… I come home from school and there’s lunch to cook, house to clean, studying to catch up with, a little sister to look after, a big sister to help with the smallest activities because she could miscarry anytime… Gawd, I can’t take all of this anymore!!!! :’(

It’s good that Lorenzo and his mom come over more times a week to help us all, because I, alone, couldn’t do it to save my life. I’m on the edge of a nervous breakdown. ;__; *sigh* Has any of you gone through similar experiences in life? Could any of you give me a tiny tiny tip? Because right now I wish I had hair on my head to pull off violently… *sobs*

What’s good is that I’m enjoying a little moment of freedom right now. I hope it lasts for another hour… I’m playing free games online, and if you click to Roulette.tv you’ll see one of my newest interests: roulette playing. Ahah! Well, actually I’m still too young for that kind of games, but I hope to start playing as soon as I turn 18 and that website is filled with awesome information and tips to get started. Amazing, huh? I didn’t even know we could play online! xD

Like with everything in life, even with games practice makes perfect. I really hope I’ll be a good player, hehe.

For now, though, I just wish to continue being a good sister… I’m just so stressed. >.<